The week ahead – September 12, 2022

Okay, I was unexpectedly out for a couple of weeks and I got a little behind. Whew. Back now.

What I am reading

All of the things I was reading before are still on the list. But actively, I am doing some re-reading:

Mutual Aid. I was re-reading the part of chapter 5 that is about making decisions together, but then a colleague told me they were re-reading the burnout section of this same chapter and now I am reading this too.

What I am thinking about

History. I needed to look in the Library Records collection in the archives for something and that trip back to the past has me thinking of all kinds of things about where we are now.

The OSTP memo. What it says, what it means, and what it means for OSU and OSULP. I am going to be talking to the Research Office about this in a couple of weeks and hopefully to the deans soon thereafter.

Elsevier negotiations. More on this to come.

What I am preparing for/ meetings of note

Initial budget allocations. We get an initial allocation from the university every year, of course, but then we need to figure out how to divide it between our indexes. That’s due this week.

Library faculty brown bag. The researcher services coordinator and I are going to be talking about a brown bag/ discussion for the library faculty on this issue. The interim associate dean, who is also the head of collections and resource sharing, is also going to be facilitating a conversation about transformative agreements and journal negotiations. I suspect all of these conversations are going to need to converge.

Development/ External relations work. This fits into the “stuff that has to be done that is really easy to push aside bucket” but my colleague Megan and I have solved that by taking on some big projects with possibly unrealistic deadlines.

The week ahead – August 15, 2022

What I’m reading

So, last week wasn’t much of a reading week. I got about another 10% of the way through Misconceiving Merit, but that is about it.

What I am thinking about

The Qualitative Research mess. I don’t even know how to describe it. If you want to know my thoughts, see this thread and this one too — I don’t really have anything to add.

What I am preparing for

Elsevier negotiations. We spent much of last year building consensus with our faculty and administration around a set of negotiating principles. This negotiation with Elsevier (which we do in partnership with colleagues at UO and Portland State) is the first one since those principles were endorsed by the faculty senate. We have made a number of requests based on these principles during this negotiation, but this meeting on Wednesday should be complicated. We have asked that it focus entirely on this one:

OSULP will pay a fair and sustainable price to publishers for value-added services, based on transparent and cost-based pricing models.

Vet Med planning. As I said last week, the library at the College of Vet Med is administratively and financially separate from OSULP. In the last two years, this library has been entirely de-staffed and that’s obviously creating some issues for us in the central library. I am really not sure what the path forward is to resolve those issues, but this meeting will hopefully be the first step towards finding that path.

Cascades library MOA. We had a similar situation with the library at the OSU-Cascades campus in Bend, but we have figured out our path. Because of some tangled up financial structures (yay Oregon!) we still have some logistics to hammer out. They’ve been hammered out between the campuses, but on Thursday I am meeting with our financial unit partners to make sure that everything is workable.

Meetings of note

Hamersly Library dean. I’m heading up to Monmouth later today to meet with the Dean of the Library at Western Oregon University. She stepped into her role just before the pandemic and we haven’t had a chance to sit down yet and talk.

Open and Sustainable Scholarly Communication. This is the group that worked on getting our negotiating principles articulated and adopted by our campus. It was never intended to be a forever group (and the faculty advisory group that was a part of that effort has already disbanded) but the need to continue advocacy in this area is still very pressing. So we’re going to meet to figure out how to keep these conversations and that advocacy moving forward.

The week behind – August 12, 2022

So this was one of those weeks where I got a lot done and finished nothing. There should be a word for those, they happen often enough. Is there a word for those? I bet there is in German. Anyway, forward progress yes, dopamine hit from crossing things off the to-do list, not so much.

The Associate Dean PD is very, very close. I think it will be ready to send to a couple of readers on Monday. I wouldn’t send something like that out on a Friday afternoon anyway, so I am calling that a win. Strategic planning — I am close to a plan in my head. But I still need to translate that to something out of my head and that is not as far along as I would like. I am going to be visiting all of the library departments to talk about it, but that can’t happen until September because of vacations and already-finished agendas for August, so I have a little more processing time I can do. The good news is that I think there is going to be a solid dovetail between the strategic planning work and the external relations work and that makes me happy for a few reasons, most of them efficiency-related.

A few things came up during the week, but they weren’t as weighty as last week’s capital planning conversations and they didn’t weigh me down as much. The university pushed out information about a new flexible work arrangement policy to supervisors (to go to the whole campus next week) and I had to review that. We are largely out in front of the policy, so reviewing primarily meant making sure we hadn’t veered in a wildly different direction on any of our specifics. We haven’t. There are a number of places where we are at the upper end of flexible, but we’re not doing anything specifically precluded by the new policy.

And finally, I still haven’t settled on the next book to read.

The week ahead — August 8, 2022

What I’m reading

Misconceiving Merit (Blair-Loy & Cech) –> still 20% done. I left it at home and didn’t read it there.

The Promise of Access (Greene) –> 10% done

The End of Ownership (Perzanowski and Schultz) –> this is a reread, focused on refreshing the legal principles in the first few chapters. Highly recommend this book, btw.

I need to start something new to replace Beyond Accommodation, but I am not sure what yet. I usually move on to a similarly focused book, but I am feeling a desire to read some history. I know I could do both, but we’re edging up on not-really-reading-anything-well territory with five work-related books going at the same time.

What I’m thinking about

What I am preparing for

Strategic planning. Our strategic plan ends in 2023, so we really should be on developing a new one. Talking to the library about it, I am getting a lot of understandable exhaustion. From this I know that we are not interested in a full-on, consultant led process (the last one took 18 months). But at the same time, I get enough questions about the plan – current and future — that I know I have to figure something out. I think I have the outlines of a strategy in mind, but I am going to need to have some conversations. How to get that done is the problem I am working now.

Associate Dean hire. We have had an interim Associate Dean for over a year — and that’s too long. Getting this PD done and the search ready to launch is a priority.

Meetings of note

Records Manager search committee. Of note, this is the first new position my library has been funded for since like 2008, and only the second in my 18 years here. Needless to say, we are pretty excited. I worked hard on the proposal for this position and I did it collaboratively with colleagues from the general counsel’s office, the compliance office, the research office, and university relations and marketing. I’m super excited that some of those people also agreed to join the search committee. I’m not the hiring manager for this search, so I don’t technically have to be there, but I’m going to anyway.

LOTS of 1:1s. When I was trying to figure out how to reorganize the library administration department post-COVID and post-me-as-Dean I talked to lots of people and one thing I found out was that our culture here where supervisors and direct reports meet 1:1 weekly or (more commonly) biweekly is both 1) not as common as I thought and 2) very appreciated.

Admin briefing. This is a 1/2 hour to 1 hour meeting once a month that could definitely be an email. BUT, one thing I have learned in my time in big organizations is that you can’t ever find the perfect communication channel. You have to communicate things multiple ways using multiple platforms (and sometimes also multiple times). So this is a briefing on stuff different people in Admin are working on, hearing about, needing help with, etc.

College of Vet Med library prep. This is a really hard problem that all of us who are currently working on it — from university admin, the library and the college — inherited. TL;DR — this is a library that’s independently staffed, managed and funded and which is struggling. All of us from that list above are meeting next week to talk about the future, so this week I’m meeting with the librarian who has been the liaison for this situation to get our thoughts in order.

Donor/stewardship strategy. When we reorganized admin, part of the goal was for me, my executive assistant and the building and space manager to have more capacity with external and donor relations. This is one of several meetings figuring out what that looks like and how it fits with the other work already happening in admin.

The week behind — August 5, 2022

All of the meetings I listed on my week ahead post were productive and useful and that’s usually a recipe for a good attitude going into the weekend, but this time I still ended the week feeling stuck and disheartened. A meeting that wasn’t on my calendar when I wrote that post was our annual capital planning meeting to discuss space issues and needs — not the internal to the library stuff that we manage, but the big-picture and big-ticket pieces that we rely on the university to support. And the capital planners and facilities managers and project managers are dealing with major, huge issues out of their control — inflation and supply lines — and you can just see it in their faces. It’s a lot.

I am a root causes, fix it the right way kind of person and that is always going to be a challenge as a middle manager in a big organization — stuff’s out of our control, that’s just real. But when the world is this broken, I need to be able to think on a level that is not root causes — because if I can’t that’s a recipe for anxiety and burnout and the kind of deep existential dread that we’re experiencing enough in our non-work lives — but thinking at non-root causes can also feel kind of pointless. This is a tough thing to navigate.

a book cover with a brown scribble drawing on a white background. The title of the book is Beyond Accommodation Creating an Inclusive Workplace for Disabled Library Workers and the authors are Jessica Schomberg and Wendy Highby

Anyway, that’s why I want to shout out that I finished Beyond Accommodation: Creating an Inclusive Workplace for Disabled Library Workers by Jessica Schomberg and Wendy Highby. I mean, I am always pretty proud when I manage to finish a book, but what I really want to shout out is the book itself.

A lot of times when I read things that are about building an inclusive workplace, no matter what the focus of that inclusion is, I come away with one of two things — a really good understanding of the structural issues creating the marginalization, exclusion or oppression and why I should want my workplace to be inclusive, or a handful of concrete strategies that I can take or an individual library worker can take, with no real connection back to root causes. As a big-picture, root causes, type of person I gravitate towards reading the first type of book, which means that I often end up with an unfocused desire to do more and an ongoing feeling of not enough.

This book navigated that tension really beautifully. The authors discuss and theorize and analyze root causes and structural issues (and what needs to be done about them) while also using local, organizational and individual lenses to address the same issues. It was a breath of fresh air in a frustrating week and I highly, highly recommend it.

The week ahead – August 1, 2022

What I’m reading:

Beyond Accommodation (Schoenberg & Highby) –> 75% done

Misconceiving Merit (Blair-Loy & Cech) –> 20% done

The Promise of Access (Greene) –> barely started

What I’m thinking about

this thread —

and this one –

and this too –

Meetings of note:

(Beyond normal 1:1s with colleagues)

Elsevier negotiation prep. Oregon’s 3 major research universities (OSU, UO and PSU) negotiate with Elsevier as a group. The group is meeting Monday to finalize a proposal about one of our major sticking points – cost transparency. Then we are either meeting with Elsevier reps on Wednesday or a week from Wednesday, depending upon how much time they need with our proposal.

Meeting with the classified staff association. We have a long-standing endowed fund set up by a library donor to support professional development and research activities for library faculty. Several years ago Faye Chadwell, University Libarian, set up a similar fund for the Classified Staff Association to manage. We’re going to meet to discuss the logistics of the fund and some new ideas for managing it.

Library management team standing meeting. We meed biweekly for two hours. In the interim weeks we have a 1 hour meeting scheduled that we sometimes use for regular business, sometimes for professional development, and sometimes we cancel. This week is a two hour meeting. On the agenda: faculty performance reviews, a couple of policy reviews, a reorganization proposal from a library unit and I am giving a short update on some reorganization I’m doing with our library advisory council.

Meeting with faculty reps to discuss and document hiring with tenure processes. This one is pretty self-explanatory.

My first library session

“You don’t need to be nervous with us”

I don’t remember a lot about my first library session, but I have a really clear memory of that comment from a student feedback form. I have never figured out exactly what they meant — I didn’t need to be nervous with this class, this group of students, specifically?  The nerves were unnecessary, full stop?  But I do know what it meant to me at the time.  It meant that yes, they noticed I was nervous.  I didn’t like that.  But it made me feel like  they saw me as a person, hoped I saw them as people, and I did like that.

It would have been 2003. I was in a part-time wage appointment covering history for the OSU libraries. I was an intern working on a metadata project and the librarians found out that I also taught history (as an adjunct).  They were about to launch a triple search – hiring three new subject librarians – and maybe I could cover one of their subject gaps!  Within the week I had my first instruction request.

I visited the archives a few times as a history major and as a history graduate student, but I have no memory of going to the library for a traditional one-shot. So I didn’t really have a mental model I could use to prepare for this class.  I remember a colleague — a wonderful and supportive mentor — sharing activities I could do and concepts I should  demonstrate.

The class went fine. My colleague observed. I was more nervous than I expected to be because I didn’t know what to expect. None of the strategies and identities I had developed in my teaching career really helped me in this strange new context — learning names, building habits, building trust over time — so I felt very without a net. And I’m afraid of heights at the best of times. As we know, my nerves were visible, even though I didn’t name them. Now I always name them. The professor wasn’t thrilled, wasn’t disappointed. It was fine. The students, as you know, were kind. At least, I don’t remember those who weren’t.

I do remember this one feeling. Something had gone off script, something unexpected had come up in the example and I remember this intense feeling of wanting to scrap the plan and do something else but also feeling paralyzed about that — I can’t or shouldn’t —  because the person who helped me make the plan was sitting right there watching*.

This post was inspired by Veronica’s Blushing, Sweating, Stammering — the first in a new series — that sent me down a winding path of memories this morning. One thing I realized as I thought about those “firsts” was how often the help I got took the form of “here’s some things from my teaching and my practice that you can take and use.”  My first class, first conference presentation, even first reference interactions, I was encouraged to use other people’s materials, guides, activities, plans, outlines, etc.  I get it – I didn’t have much of my own yet, and there are a lot of safe feelings tied up in the tried and true.

Looking back, I’m okay with the way I floundered when I needed to adapt on the fly within the constraints of someone else’s teaching.  I’ve learned that the real thinking work for facilitating isn’t about how to fill the time, or how specific activities should go. It’s about  flow, connections and transitions, and what I want the experience to look and feel like.  But the second part – feeling stuck because of the colleague in the room — is different. That’s something I’m still working on. And really, the first and the second things are connected.  I like to get things started, hold space, and let things happen – those are important parts of my teaching and my facilitating identity.  But even though I co-teach and co-facilitate a lot I still have a lot to learn about doing those things in the moment and with other people. I still get caught, in the moment and in my head and get stuck on how to make choices together that I would have no trouble making on my own.

I’ve been thinking about this lately in present tense — past me is shaking up that thinking in some really good ways. Here’s to remembering firsts.

 

*To be clear, I am pretty sure she would have had no problem with my going off script, wouldn’t have felt her labor was disrespected, would have been super into talking through what I did and why I did it. This paralysis was created by the pretend standards I made up in my head and imposed on her.

Achievement unlocked – 52 movies

Well, after saying last year that we never accomplish this goal, this year we did.  It did take a last-minute decision to take New Years’ Eve off, but that was something that might have happened anyway.

(Why movies?  I wrote about it last year & the reasons haven’t changed)

We haven’t had our final best movies in the theater discussion yet, but the titles in bold are the ten that would be in the running for me.  As always, these are based on a personal and idiosyncratic set of criteria. Your mileage may vary.  Plus, I can’t promise that these would be the same ten I would pick tomorrow.

JANUARY
Vice
Reefer Madness
If Beale Street Could Talk
On the Basis of Sex
Stan & Ollie

FEBRUARY
Roma
Cold War
Isn’t it Romantic
Oscar Nominated Documentary Shorts*

MARCH
Captain Marvel
Apollo 11*
Ruben Brandt, Collector

APRIL
Woman at War
The Mustang
Avengers: Endgame

MAY
Satan & Adam*
Hail Satan?*
Amazing Grace*
Booksmart

JUNE
Rocketman
All is True
Echo in the Canyon*
The River and the Wall*

JULY
The Last Black Man in San Francisco
The Bikes of Wrath*
Once Upon a Time in Hollywood

AUGUST
Wild Rose
Toni Morrison: The Pieces I Am*
Maiden*
The Farewell
Sword of Trust
Blinded by the Light
Mike Wallace Is Here*
Find Me

SEPTEMBER
David Crosby: Remember My Name*
Ad Astra
Official Secrets
Linda Ronstadt: The Sound of My Voice*

OCTOBER
Judy
One Child Nation*

NOVEMBER
Where Is My Roy Cohn?*
Pain and Glory
Ford vs. Ferrari
A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood
Knives Out
The Irishman

DECEMBER
Dark Waters
Honey Boy
The Two Popes
Little Women
Uncut Gems
Fantastic Fungi*

The asterisks denote documentaries.  The number of documentaries on this list shows that it was, overall, a weaker year for movies than last year was. At least, it was a a weaker year for movies-that-showed-in-Corvallis-theaters than last year was.  Even when things are limited, there is usually a documentary of some interest playing somewhere. And our bar for documentaries is lower, because even when the craft is low, there is still a chance we might learn something.

To be fair, there are some movies that are probably very extremely good that we have not seen, and will not see, because I do not do horror imagery.  For some reason, those images have an outsized effect on me and I can’t shake them. I don’t mean garden-variety violence;  some of the images I still see when I can’t sleep aren’t that violent. Anyway, The Lighthouse and Parasite did play here, but I kept us from seeing them.

Behind the Paywall — Fugitive Practices: Learning in a Settler Colony

Citation

Leigh Patel (2019): Fugitive Practices: Learning in a Settler Colony, Educational Studies, DOI: 10.1080/00131946.2019.1605368.

Access Issues

Paywall: Taylor and Francis

None, really thanks to some information privilege.  The article is paywalled, obviously. It doesn’t show up in any of our indexes yet because it’s still an early article, not really published.  So I had to do the ILL request manually.  At this point, even the ILL request form no longer requires page numbers or anything else that would be hard with a preprint, so the main issue there was knowing that I needed to and could do it.

I submitted the request before logging onto Zoom for an online meeting, and had the article before the meeting was over.

TL;DR

This is a short article that is more a call to action than a traditional scholarly piece. Patel argues that educators and educational researchers should resist and reject dominant narratives about learning (narratives that are infused and sustained by settler colonialism) to see the practices that create real learning — learning that sustains in the face of violent erasure and dehumanization — which are there in what has been erased.

And here we go…

The stories that individuals tell about themselves, their people, their nation, other people, and success or failure all have material force in the shape and functions that institutions perform in society.” — page 1

Patel starts by giving a whirlwind summary of U.S. history, national-narrative style — one that starts with religious-freedom seeking European settlers and ends with Barack Obama’s election marking the end of racism.  In between we touch on westward expansion, American exceptionalism, bootstraps and rugged individuals, melting pots, freedom and this land of opportunity.

Slavery is in there, but mostly as an unfortunate (and past) period of time. Settler colonialism is “rarely mentioned” and flourishes in that silence. 

Patel pulls out a few key characteristics of this story: it is linear and progressive — concepts illustrated perfectly by American Progressa painting so perfect you probably thought of it when you heard “westward expansion” even if you didn’t know what it was called.  It is also a story that is built on, names and entrenches what Patel calls “hierarchies of humanness.” And, of course, in the American story we have to start with the fact that these hierarchies are historically and currently racial

“The perpetuation of the myth that race is biological categorically served the purposes of rendering Black, Indigenous and other people of color as belonging to groups that were less than human.” — page 3.

After this introduction, we go on to dig into some of these concepts as Patel establishes the theoretical lenses we need, starting with settler colonialism and education. 

ERASE and REPLACE

Drawing on Veracini, 2011 Patel describes these as the “core concept and organizing principle” of settler colonialism, and then she digs deeper into the ways that settler colonialism shapes our understanding of: how we know what we know, what counts as knowing, and the policy and practice built on this shared epistemology.  Key elements to this epistemology include:

  • Property has value;  knowledge is property.
  • Achievement is individual.
  • Learning is linear and progressive.

Think about how an epistemology that reflects values rooted in land — as an interconnected, living, life-giving, shared thing — would shift our understanding of learning, achievement and knowledge.

So that brings us to the second lens, learning as fugitive. 

Patel uses descriptions of the many ways that enslaved peoples shared teaching and learning in secret, when being literate was illegal for them. And while some of this fugitivity is about those concrete practices, some of it is about shared epistemology –how people in this context knew what they knew — starting from a recognition that the truth is not always what is taught, that those national histories that that say some are lesser than and erase others, are not unassailable truth even as they are presented as such.

This fugitivity, this resistance, is not just an individual thing. Dominant cultures are dominant, but they are not the only. There are counternarratives and countercultures that exist at the same time, and these are seen in individuals and communities and in activism and social movements, movements that are frequently sparked and carried forward by young people.

Which brings us to the call to action

Educational researchers (and educators) should shift away from questions of achievement, grounded in the individualist, property-focused progressivism of settler colonialism, towards questions that focus on what learning really is.  And she further argues that the moment we are living in makes this shift essential — “an imperative moment.” She doesn’t deny that this kind of shift could never be neutral or safe and she argues that the risks she’s talking about aren’t romantic, but necessary.

Educational studies scholars can bring in the history, the contextual accuracy of settler state desires, and raise up the authentic and purposeful learning that has been passed from generation to generation. — page 8

Key references: 

Harney, S. & Moten, F. 2013. The undercommons: Fugitive planning and black study.

Mignolo, W.D. 2012. Local histories/ global designs: Coloniality, subaltern knowledges, and border thinkingPrinceton University Press. 

Sleeter, C.E. 2017. Critical race theory and the whiteness of teacher education. Urban Education, 52(2), 155-169

  • This is paywalled (though it might be available out there perhaps on one of those for-profit scholarly social article places) BUT the author has done an open summary here on her blog.

Veracini, L. 2011. Introducing: Settler colonial studies. Settler Colonial Studies, 1(1), 1-12.  (PDF at the Swinburne University of Technology repository)

Wynter, S. 2003. Unsettling the coloniality of being/power/truth/freedom: Toward the human, after man, its overrepresentation — An argument. CR: The New Centennial Review, 3(3), 257-337. 

  • This is paywalled but it might be out there if you did some searching, I mean maybe.  BUT there is an extensive discussion of this article out there on the Always Already critical theory podcast.  I haven’t listened to it, but hey, that’s pretty cool.